i think the best place to put this is here…i don’t really want to post it on facebook, although anyone who sees my facebook can click through to here, but i know putting up this link will prevent many from bothering to see it, so i feel ok about that…add that to the fact that those who have read this blog have been very supportive, so i feel safe enough that only those interested will read this…anyway… Continue reading ‘It Begins…’
I have been meaning to write this post for a while, but it’s hard to put into words…
One level: I am most certainly depressed. I have suicidal thoughts often. My moods can switch like a blinking Christmas tree. I am epically unhappy with my circumstances (my job, especially). I cannot keep a train of thought for more than a few seconds unless I’m really interested. Continue reading ‘Why I am afraid to be diagnosed.’
I’m in love,
Constantly in love with the woman
That you enabled me to be.
Enabler. Continue reading ‘Can’t Have Your Cake (Poem)’
And there will be evenings,
When you are so sure of every
That you know in your heart you are. Continue reading ‘Poem’
I don’t know if I’m mourning the loss of that friendship, or the fact that I have never since been that close to someone.
A person who used to be a friend of mine got married recently. As I am not close to them, I was not invited (duh, or else why would I be writing this?). I’m fairly certain that person will never read this blog, but people are always getting married, especially in the summer, so I doubt I am saying anything incriminating by stating that. Not that I am incriminating anyone, by any means. (If you know who it is, please refrain from calling them out in any way, as this is NOT about them, thanks.) Continue reading ‘Friendships End…’
It’s been a strange few days.
I look down at my typing hands, always typing, but do I even enjoy typing? Do I enjoy this click click click of the keyboard as I drum out other people’s thoughts? Continue reading ‘If I appear normal, it is a carefully developed illusion.’